All posts by nilkilla

Artist, Musician, Printer, Writer

Original Intermittent Unrequited Date

09/17/19

I see you 

at the show 

I find you 

wherever you are

we dance together

we fly

Through the crowd

Passing time

So familiar

The more we know

So close

The more we’re alike

So far

the less we feel 

So long

Another time

Another show

I follow along

Of we do

Together forever

Onto the show

This is the place

We’re settling down

Whether you know it or not

Casually here

Edging along your line of sight

Stealing across your conscious thought

I’m Here with you

I’m Here with you

I’m Here with you

I’m Here with you

Another Dawn another day

Together we walk

Taking in the sun light

I’m right here

With you

To the store 

To the shop 

A coffee and go

It’s so nice to come along

It’s great to have so mutch in common 

Then it’s back To the show

Bumping into you

Long time no see

Another chance to brush against you,  

Beauty

You lay down

Exhaustion s consumed you

I sneak in to steal a whiff

I inhale 

As you stir

I fade away

You smell so mutch better when you’re asleep

Nerve damage

Yes that’s me

The one who will

Do anything to please

Until I’m stretched out

Until it hurts

I’m in it for the pain

Scars have left me numb

It takes more than a little

To wake me up

I’m in it for the pain

Want a cut

A bit of burn

Scratch me up

Bite slap and punch me

I’m in it for the pain

Scars have left me numb

It takes more than a little

To wake me up

I’m in it for the pain

Tie me up

Twist the knot

Pinch me hard

Choke bind and whip me

I’m in it for the pain

Well okay…I’m proud

Proud of my race?

Proud of the color of the semen that met the egg?

The more you speak the more I know you’re wrong

Opinion makes up about as much fact as guessing the number in my head

Not even close! It’s my lone middle finger extended in your face

May as well be proud as the country that wiggling zygote met the egg

Oh wait…let me guess…I should be proud of that too?

The more you speak the more I know you’re wrong

Opinion makes up about as much fact as guessing the number in my head

Wrong again!

So close! Both my middle fingers standing in salute to your willful ignorance

Did you have to go to asshole school?

To earn your doctrine in apathy?

We’re all the same beings on Starship Earth

Proud of my race?

Proud of what color shows when light hits my skin?

Peel it all off and we’re all blood red

Proud of my birth?

Proud of my skin?

Proud of my birthplace?

Uhhhh yeah my parents fucked…well okay, I’m proud

Your parents fucked too

And their parents

And their parents

So many generations of people

Worked to the bone

Dead and gone

To produce you

And you want to say all odd their lives

All of their accomplishments

All of their sacrifice

Is the peak of your life goals?

What a waste of time and space

Star Blind

There’s no place for me here

My rounded curves getting cut by the jagged edges of your pieces

Every moment I’m here, I bleed

This isn’t my time to shine

My Photalgia driving stardom’s spotlight spikes deep into my mind’s eye

Every moment im here, I’m blind

Why is it I who must give up his sight?

Why is it I who must give up his dreams?

Why is it I who must keep giving?

While you Take

And you Take

And you Take

Failear Stockpile

Accumulating failure

Rolling downhill

Gathering momentum from my bad decisions

The past is so rose gold glorious

I realize later I’ll miss the now

The passing of time just makes it so much worse

Accumulating failure

Rolling downhill

Velocity increasing from my bad decisions

There’s no better tomorrow

Only better yesterdays

The here and now

Being nothing

Until the dawn and i look back and see those pastures spreadin wide

Saturated with that rose gold hue

Accumulating failure

Rolling downhill

Increasingly terminal from my bad decisions

Piloting the TBD bus off of a cliff

Can’t look forward for the bottomless pit

I can’t look back without going blind

I can’t look up for the scorpions

Can’t look down for the dragons in the sky

Just let me close my eyes and sleep

Empty of dreams hopes and desire

There’s no wish left in me

Accumulating failure

Rolling downhill

Gathering momentum from my bad decisions

Custom VINYL STICKERS!

I am now able to create custom cut vinyl stickers, as small as you like, up to 8.5×11″!

I made the example stickers for shipping my own products, but 10 sheets of stickers for $5 shipped!

Really though, you can even have more than one color 😉 Please message for Custom designs or to review available pre-made images!

Review of Born Against

Born Against is a 10 tracked roller coaster through the lightest and darkest reaches of the human heart, mind and soul. With peaks of energy in murder at the bingo hall and 24k casket, dredging through the revenge soaked depths of drop for every hour and better ways to fry a fish. The introspective, yet perspective view from different anymore, quiet as a rat, shadow and another man’s grave. End capped with the emotional plumbing of small stones and letter from death row. Amigo continues to explore not just the previously mentioned parts of human existence, But also he explores new ranges in vocals, instruments, effects and word party that shows he’s only begun to scratch the surface of his potential.